First Timer. Pulled VIII of Swords (rev.)
So, I’m very new to all of this. I don’t know exactly what I’m doing but I bought a deck recently (Rider Waite). Cleansed them with sage and meditated on them to form some sort of bond. Recently I’ve been out of work and very stressed about finding a new job. The last two weeks I’ve had massive waves of anxiety and a couple panic attacks. This has resulted in just having negative thoughts about myself. Nothing harmful and I do have healthy habits to combat this. I started meditating again (first time in 2 years) and the anxiety is starting to slowly go away. I started my morning with meditation and focused on the deck. I didn’t ask a question, but I just pulled a card… Hoping to get some insight on my situation.
I pulled the VIII of Swords upside down. Doing some quick research, I found that this could be representing my inner critic getting the best of me and causing self-doubt to create this anxiety.
My interpretation, the swords form a fence around her, almost like prison bars, but her eyes are covered forcing her to look inward. She refuses to look outside herself and creates a prison internally. Which is exactly what I’ve been doing. Being extremely self-critical and saying negative things about myself, manifesting that internal prison much stronger.
I guess what I’m asking this community is to help me on my tarot journey. Am I way off? I’m very new to this and dreadfully uninformed about interpreting Tarot. Any advice is appreciated or sources to educate myself would be amazing.