How to connect to my own wisdom – overreliance on tarot readers and psychics
I had to post this here because r/Psychic took it down…
I need advice because I've been through a lot of relational trauma and childhood abuse, thus making me very indecisive. It's gotten to a point where it's effecting me financially…not to the point where I am bankrupt, but I've spent nearly 200-250$ maybe on readers since January of this year and maybe 350$ last year. How do I trust my gut? I also have IBS and struggle with anxiety. I used to be part of a psychic community and they helped me listen to my inner voice like 10 years ago, but in the past 5 years, I've been through a lot of trauma and it's scrambled my brain a bit.
I've even sold readings, but now it makes me feel uncomfortable telling people things because it feels disempowering. I've only been able to read present energy anyway before my brain got scrambled by trauma. I don't know how to listen to my heart either. Is there a simple prayer I can do?
I would ask different readers the same big question over and over again, but I wouldn't be happy about the response. There was one reading that made me cry because it was so negative with regards to love and making a big move. I'm at crossroads in my life and very fearful about the future and all that could go wrong. Also, having a narcissistic mother and dealing with ADHD, C-PTSD etc, financial losses has really messed up my ability to make decisions for myself.
I go to therapy 2-3x a month, and it's expensive as well and sometimes I justify me purchasing a tarot reading because it's cheaper than therapy. I pay 65$ per 50 minute session which is an unhealthy way to think.