The tower is stalking me and It’s ruining my mental health

The weirdest part is that I wasn’t reading for myself and rarely do, this card just wants to come out every time I get my deck for several weeks now. It has gotten to the point where I got angry and put my tarot cards down to stop my tarot business for a while.

Im trying to cope with it but I can’t seem to. Is the tower really something you can’t avoid or have control over?? If so then why do my guided feel the need to send this to me every day when they know it upsets me and I can’t do anything about it. I would rather just not know and be happy until it just happens

Yes, I did finally give in and ask what the specific tower moment was going to be and my stomach dropped when I saw the cards. I don’t want it to happen

Has anyone else been through this that can offer any positive spin on this situation because I feel scared and helpless